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Hestia Abbott (eagleofdelphi) wrote,
@ 2008-01-17 23:38:00

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Hestia's Journal (XXX) - early a.m. Sunday, 19 December, 1999
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	regretfulde 2008-01-18 04:47 am UTC (link)
	Hestia? I'm sorry about earlier. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 04:52 am UTC (link)
	No, I'm sorry, for everything. It was all my fault. I'm not very good at being pregnant either, it seems. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 04:55 am UTC (link)
	Either? Hestia, while I may not be an expert on being pregnant, you look to be doing it remarkably well, and what's with this either business? What else do you not think you're doing well? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 04:59 am UTC (link)
	Uh, we've discussed this before. Who are you and what have you done with the Dominic I've been with prior to this? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 05:01 am UTC (link)
	The man you've been with is probably an ass who overlooked something you discussed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 05:03 am UTC (link)
	Well, I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt about your identity considering you know I'm pregnant, but what I was talking about were all the times I told you I was no good at relationships. I'm adding pregnancy to the list. ~~So it's probably good I'm not your wife as I'd be horrible at that too.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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regretfulde
2008-01-18 05:22 am UTC (link)

The revised list of things Hestia IS good at:

Persuading the Minister to like coffee

Pregnancy

Being in the only relationship that matters, to the man who fully intends to love her for the rest of his life and never wants her to be in another relationship with anyone else anyhow.

Being an auror

Being Gorgeous

Being my girlfriend

Helping with Hannah

Being Hestia and all that involves

The short lists of things Hestia is NOT good at:
Telling which mug is hers
~~Remembering that she taught her boyfriend how to read strikeouts~~
Flying while drunk
Telling who her boyfriend is when she's tired evidentally

Hestia, if this is about what you said about Teaghan just before you went to your room...there is no yes or answer that CAN work in that situation. The truth of the matter is that Teaghan didn't like my...profession, any better than you did. You two both used your own methods to deal with this horrible thing I've gotten myself into, and neither of you are better or worse than the other, just different. And I love you, Hestia. I love you so much, and I don't want you to think poorly of yourself. I meant what I said when I tried to propose, I'd marry you if we could, but, more than that, WHEN we can I WILL marry you.

Now, honestly, are you telling the truth when you say that you're alright?

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	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 05:25 am UTC (link)
	I DIDN'T TEACH YOU THAT SO YOU COULD USE IT AGAINST ME YOU RAT. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 05:30 am UTC (link)
	Well I know it so you can't UNteach me... And you didn't answer my question. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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eagleofdelphi
2008-01-18 05:43 am UTC (link)

I may well try, be very afraid.

And apparently I don't have to, since you read my strikeout and figure out I was lying when you left.

I love you Dominic, and I love that you'd sit there and make a list for me when I'm being stupid, and I hate that I was so emotional earlier, but I know my weaknesses. I know I'm horrible at relationships and it's only because of you I'm not failing this time, and pregnancy isn't making me any better at anything. I was never this emotional or insane the last time.

I... I do want to be your wife, for a million stupid reasons, even if I'd be terrible at it ~~and never as good as T~~, but I'm happy being your girlfriend because I love you and you love me and in the end marriage isn't the point, loving each other is. I want our child to not have the stigma of illegitimacy, but I would never, ever risk any of you just to have that change.

Can we just forget earlier?

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regretfulde
2008-01-18 06:11 am UTC (link)

We can't forget it, not entirely, but we can decide to not focus on it for now. I still want to marry you someday, but you're right, for now we can be content to love one another.

And you're NOT terrible, Hestia, not at anything. You're spontaneous and you put me in line and make me laugh and you're anything but horrible. We can lean on one another from time to time, nothing is wrong with that. Perhaps your relationships before didn't work out because you were meant to be with me. did you think of that? I think that we work well together, Hestia, that THIS works.

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	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 06:13 am UTC (link)
	What? They didn't work because simply I was meant to be single just when you were ready to love someone again? What am I supposed to do, look at that in the reverse? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 06:15 am UTC (link)
	... Of course not. ~~merlin I'm bad at this.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 06:16 am UTC (link)
	You're not bad at this, don't say that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 06:18 am UTC (link)
	I am. I didn't mean it like that Hestia...you know that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 06:23 am UTC (link)
	I know, and were my foot not so far in my mouth, I would turn the audio on and tell you I should never have written that because I should have known better. Even journals aren't immune to me doing before thinking. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 06:25 am UTC (link)
	All that I meant was that maybe you weren't meant to stay with those other people and you were meant to stay with me...but then I put MY foot in MY mouth and...well, you saw what happened. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 06:27 am UTC (link)
	Merlin, stop saying that Dominic! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 06:29 am UTC (link)
	I'm sorry. I seem to have a gift for not saying things the way that I mean to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 06:30 am UTC (link)
	How else could you mean it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 06:31 am UTC (link)
	I don't know...and I'm not trying to t angry scribbling here It just jumbles my head to try to think of the right way to say it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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eagleofdelphi
2008-01-18 06:35 am UTC (link)

You're basically saying that past things happened, like my inability to be in a lasting relationship, because I was meant to be with you. But if you're saying destiny or fate or some meddlesome god meant me to be with you, then you're either saying the same of yourself and I can't accept she died so I could be with you, or you're NOT saying that, in which case what can be implied makes me want to smack you.

So explain it to me.

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regretfulde
2008-01-18 06:40 am UTC (link)

You're just...

You're you and not everyone works well with you. I'm sure you had fun with everyone else but I just think we work better than you worked with those other people, the way that some people work better together and others don't. I think we work so well together that the idea of settling down and getting married and doing those ridiculously cheesy things doesn't sound outrageous. Fate or meddlesome gods has nothign to do with it.

Or maybe I'm just a nutter.

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	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 06:45 am UTC (link)
	Merlin, why didn't you just say that from the start!? Also, cheesy? CHEESY? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 06:50 am UTC (link)
	Because I can't say what I mean to half of the time when I'm around you or talking to you. Something about those damned eyes of yours. And as to the second? No comment. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 06:52 am UTC (link)
	You're adorably ridiculous. We are writing in journals, my eyes are like this . big. That's what I thought, I'll make sure I tell Hannah you had no comment when I tell her you used that word. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 07:36 am UTC (link)
	You are not to speak of that to Hannah, my little traitor. She'd take your side because of woman issues and then where would I be? No...you should forget I ever said that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 07:40 am UTC (link)
	Woman issues? Poor kiddo. I love, though, that you two have the kind of relationship that she'd even tell you that, let alone you realize you stand no chance against our hormones combined. I'm not going to forget, EVER. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 07:59 am UTC (link)
	She... Oh...no, I just meant that she was a woman and you were a woman and you two in your womanness tend to conspire against poor helpless men like myself. FORGET IT. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 08:01 am UTC (link)
	Because women are evil, of course. CAN'T. THIS JOURNAL IMMORTALIZED IT. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 08:03 am UTC (link)
	I'm glad you're seeing reason. As official Minister of Magic, I will exert my powers to confisgate this journal fo yours and burn it and then no one will be the wiser. Give it to me Jones. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 08:04 am UTC (link)
	You weren't supposed to agree! Now we'll have to smother you in your sleep. Oh, I'll give it to you. But I'm keeping the journal. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 08:08 am UTC (link)
	If you smother me in my sleep won't it be rather difficult for you to give 'it' to me? And as minister I require both, 'it' as well as the journal. You may give them both to me at your earliest convenience. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 08:10 am UTC (link)
	I could be in to necrophilia for all you know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 08:11 am UTC (link)
	To do list for tomorrow/today: 1) check if necrophilia is outlawed...and if not outlaw it. Don't worry, Hestia, already taken care of. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 08:12 am UTC (link)
	You asked for it, all that talk about me servicing you because you're the minister. And on my birthday too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 08:18 am UTC (link)
	Well perhaps I could return the favor as well or we could wait until tomrrow. YOU were the one who brought it up after all, or did you forget that part? Come now, Hestia, you know the minister is very fond of pleasing his favorite auror. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 08:20 am UTC (link)
	You brought it up, you were the first person to say "give it to me" after all. I better be your only Auror, Abbott. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. regretfulde 2008-01-18 08:27 am UTC (link)
	I meant the journal, Jones! And you are my only auror. I'm not crazy enough to try to take on two of you at once. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Hestia/Dom. eagleofdelphi 2008-01-18 08:30 am UTC (link)
	Sure you did. What are you saying, that I'm a handful? Git. (Reply to this) (Parent)